So, today’s been rough. Rough in a way that can’t be perceived by other people. Today was a bad brain-fog day.
I have been diagnosed with hypothyroidism. I’ve been taking medication for it for the past 12+ years, but anyone with this disorder can tell you that while the medication helps, symptom management is a beast. For the most part, I’d like to say I function normally (well, as normal as I can possibly define), but there are some rough days. I can break them down into to basic categories: “My brain isn’t working” and “My body isn’t working”. It’s not the worst thing to have, but it’s certainly no picnic.
When my body isn’t working, it feels like I’m trapped in a vat of molasses. Every body part is heavy, and any movement takes an unreasonable amount of effort. My entire body pulses with my heart, which already averages between the 46 to 53 beats per minute.
When my brain isn’t working, I can only describe as “having less room to think in”. My thoughts get lost in the aforementioned fog, making me utterly useless at work. What good is a Technical person who can’t problem-solve?
I swear I’m just a zombie passing for human.